It's not simple to say..

Most days I don't recognize myself, in this situation with the words I chose in conversation with people I love. Sometimes I feel I was a born natural to make someone angry. Frequently, on many occasions through the years, it would cause misunderstanding and got my loved one angry and hurt people, I used to call friends. And I don't even feel the need to explain myself, in my mind, I felt that if he who really loves me will forgive. Until now, I've yet to find someone that has forgiven me. Not many people know how I really feel and think cause no one have the patience to stay longer.

Sometimes I feel I'm reckless just enough and end up meeting the wrong people and get used by a man who can't love me. I get stuck and be scared of life and I get bruised all over again, time after time. I'm not anything like I used to be, I never like to meet people anymore, because I would never really know what to say or use the right words. For years, it didn't help, it is like a defend system I have to get rid of anyone who cares because deep down I know they will leave me one day in pain.

I was imperfect but I have a good heart and would not harm anyone. I'm lonely most of the time, craving for someone who would pamper me without reason, but I am too afraid to meet anyone new. I really hate myself sometimes and more than once the thought of killing myself occurs, luckily my sense of responsibility to my family and work kept me going.

I break down and cry many nights.  I may be broken, I may be struggling inside but I need to move on.

Almost 2years on...

 It is almost coming to the end of Q3 2021, yet today we are still looking at how Covid-19 have affected us globally. Some countries are getting the 3^rd waves or 4^th due to variants of covid while others are still struggling and locked down measures in place in hope to stop further spread

Countries with high vaccination rates are slowly implementing small steps to open up domestically but with stringent measures for travelers.

Some business strive while other, even the traditional heritage businesses have called it the end of their era. During this period, I've learned and adapted to being by myself and tend to get some social anxiety instead when there's a need to meet. It has been so long, that conversation with people you know seems to be awkward at some occasions. Hopefully, this is just temporary and we can slowly learn to be how we are before. For now. Stay safe and hope that we fight off covid globally.

Last Day of Y2020...

 Today is 31 Dec 2020, the last day of an uncertain whole year, where everything seems to be unknown when the covid-19 pandemic hit the globe. 

The unknown virus bought fear, anxiety, depression, and a lot of uncertainty in life. Humanity was brought to the test. Family and friends were forced to keep their distance from one another to keep safe. Some took this great time to pamper themselves and relax. Alone time gave people more time to think of their desires. Couples get the opportunity to be more intimate, but not all end up well. Family time was too much for some to handle. Of course, there are also many great stories of people coming together helping the vulnerable overcome the pandemic situtation.

While others go the other way and fall into the depression of loneliness and fear of getting sick. In such times, we get to know more about what we fear and cherish. And hope we have learned and know better to handle it in the coming future. The numbers of infections remain high and uncontrolled, in another part of the world, and with mutation of more infectious of the virus was reported, we may still need to combat the covid-19 for another year at least before we can see better times and pick up of the economy. For now, we do what we can and must. Staying positive and keep our mind saint.

The lockdown of countries and borders kept families apart, business at a standstill, frontline struggles, and humanity fear. While mother earth, wildlife has a break from human intrudes and strive during those periods of locked down. It may not be much significant in the long term, but it shows us, humans, how much we had meddled in their lifestyle and environment. it has brought a lot of awareness to climate change and wildlife conservation. Human is now more appreciative to nature and conscience of their health.

Being the end of the year and tomorrow a world new chapter of the year. Wishing all joy, happiness, peace, and a healthy new year 2021.

The World at a standstill / Covid-19

During the pandemic, everything changed. The virus that spread globally not only it is easily infectious, the death rate was high too. Many countries were caught off-guarded or un-prepared when it hits their shores. Fake news and rumors spread vitally, no one knows what is real, the government had to step in and create an official website for the public to get access, subscribe and be informed.

Life was on a standstill during the locked down, public rushing for food supply and daily household stuff before the locked down as if the war is here. Frontline, essential services, food provider and supply chain were the few services that are still available when the locked down were slowly opening with restricted measure in place.

Many have lost their income and not sure what their futures hold. Graduated student were unable to find jobs, family not allowed to visit and the mental health were challenging during these times. Family were break apart and cannot meet one another. Love couples were being challenged. With countries shutdown, people are voicing their unhappiness, the homeless are hit the worst and the seniors are vulnerable against the virus. For an island-Singapore, we took almost a year before things looks better, with everyone doing their best to keep their distance in public areas. We are the few fortunate countries that have experience infectious virus in the country before and this time we are more willing to cooperator and know what we must do. Life may not be back to what we use to before the pandemic, but at least for now, we are confident that we are able to see it through until the vaccine is available.

Singapore was lucky, we have our network structure already in place, technologies and available in almost every household that even school continued during the locked down with some changes. Some industries were able to remain operational with working at home and stay safe. Wet markets, retails, F&B that adopted live steaming sales were explosive. At home, video calls was a daily affair, online application became a hit in high demand and retails with ecommerce platform thrived. The almost dying last mile fulfillment was revived and double up in requirement. People had came forward to show that they care and helping others in needs. Others use their skills like singing and performance online to keep the entertainment going and help keep the mind occupy.

While Singapore is slowly opening up, the other countries were in second waves of infection due to lack of information, preparation and education. Poor living environment and food shortage also contributed to the problem. While on the other hand, the shutdown that have stopped human, traffic and carbon footprint around the world have seen some benefits. Marine life flourish, wild animals were seen strolling around the street, plants expanding their territory. Greenery were seen and it brings joys to the bees and butterflies. You hear the birds chirping outside.

Life may not be the same to many, mindset will changed, people will learn and the country will grow to be stronger. May the world learn to co-exist and keep the peace.

Should I get a carrier bag for my pet?

What is a carrier?

A carrier is either a bag or a cage that you use as temporary to transport your pets around. Usually for a vet visit.

Why need a carrier?

Depending on your pets, some pet’s cage are too big to be used to transport the pet around. So a carrier is usually used for transportation. Carrier are usually around the size of the pet so that there’s limited movement and keep the pet secure and stable during the transportation especially when during seeking medical treatment.

Type of carrier available and suitable usage?

There’s a few type of carriers available in today’s market due to heavily commercialize in Pet’s accessories. Here, we will talk about 4 of the commonly found carrier.

1.       Carrier bag

This are more flexible and usually collapsible for easy storage, since carrier bag are not usually use on daily basis. This is usually good as it do not look like a cage and you can easily have this over your shoulder and take a public transport without much hassle.

Note: Do have additional backing / towel in the bag for better cushion and support.

2.       Carrier Crate

This are usually made of plastic with steel handle or opening. Some can be dismantle for easy storage or to handle your pet. Since this is solid carrier, you wont have concern that you may crash your pet compared to a carrier bag. You can also have some water bottle in the crate and use as a holding cage at the Vet if your pet need to be monitored. But it would be bunk and attract attention in public areas where pets are not allowed. Your pets can also get anxiety due to stranger and environment since they are able to look out from the crate easier than a carrier bag.

3.       Carrier box

These carriers can be made of plastic or carton paper. They are much smaller in size so usually for smaller pets and most of the time for short trips without much stretch out leg space for your pets. Usually use to fetch/transport pets from pet stores or to boarding house.

 

Here’s a video that give more details how you can use them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stJYYyrE7KM&index=31&list=PLLALQuK1NDrjnjAFAcbvUg4tmT_jxnjTU

Places to go in Singapore

View from a height that you may like to visit in Singapore

       The  Pinnacle @ Duxton Sky garden. (FREE for resident of Pinnacle & $6/pax for public)

The skybridge of this 50 storey high HDB has two skybridge one on the 26^th floor another at 50^th floor. Access by the public is allowed, however you need to pay the $6 charge using your CEPAS card (EZ-LINK) or Cash via Managing Office at Blk 1G, Level 1 that would arrange your access. 

More details: http://www.pinnacleduxton.com.sg/Public.html

Nearest Train Station: Outram Park EW16 NE3 TE17

   

Ion Sky (FREE)

Beside shopping at Ion Orchard, they have an observatory which is open to public from 3pm - 6pm daily (Last admission: 5.30pm) which is early. However, do check beforehand to avoid it closed for private event. Alternatively, have a meal or just drink next to the observatory at the restaurant called “Salt grill & Skybar”

Ion Orchard: http://www.ionorchard.com/en/ion-sky.html

Salt grill & Skybar: https://www.lukemangan.com/restaurants/salt-grill-and-sky-bar-singapore/

Nearest Train Station: Orchard  NS22 TE14

         Marina Bay Sand Skybridge (FREE for hotel guests / $23/Adult or $17/Child for public)

At Marina Bay Sands, there’s an observation Deck at level 57which everyone can spend sometime around and view every sides of the bridge for the city or bay view. From Sunrise to Sundown it give viewer a spectacular view of the island. Operating hours from 9.30 to 10pm /11pm on Fri/Sat/Sun. Alternatively, go for the skybar/restaurants at observation deck.

Marina Bay Sands (search under skypark): http://www.marinabaysands.com/

Rooftop bar: http://www.marinabaysands.com/entertainment/nightlife/rooftop-bars.html#Xi3QBc12Y3KLJsQF.97

Nearest Train Station: Bayfront DT16 CE1

         Mount Faber Park (FREE)

One of the oldest park in Singapore that provide a great lookout of the southern of Singapore, one can walk up and stroll the park with mural wall depicts scenes. I would suggest getting a cable car ride from Sentosa for the day, then dine/walk at Mt Faber and return to HarbourFront Tower 2 station.

National Park, search for Mount Faber: https://www.nparks.gov.sg/

Faber peak, cable car: https://www.onefabergroup.com/singapore-cable-car-sky-network

Nearest TrainStation:  Harbourfront NE1 CC29 

Darling, please dont say anymore..

Song....

Always at the last moment, then you would know what the answer is. The play is not over yet, but the result already showing.

Always after you have love, then you would know how much you have sacrificed. Love is a no turning back, can’t we just let it go, just give it a miss.

Darling, please stop, I’ve changed so much.

Darling, please stop, I’m turning my heart cold.

I do not wish to love blindly and repeat the same mistake.

So, in your heart, I’m no longer the one you have once loved.

If we can start all over again, I really do not have the courage

The Familiar comforting the feeling you once gave, I no longer believe I will have that again, I don’t know if I ever will have that again.

Darling, please don’t use your tearful eyes to look at me. Darling, please don’t blame my silence.

Oh Darling, we have already missed too much.

//Love can never be rewind, even when we are back together there will definitely be some changes and differences from what we once used to. Either better or worst. So it really depends if you want to take the chances. 

To build the trust and love again is not easy and you may end up hurting even deeper than you already are. Treasure your moments, as once it slips there's no turning back.

Take care, my beloved friends.
Amanda